Dreams

For the first time in my life I feel like I know exactly what I want in my life. I have these dreams lately of my future self. Now, as in most my dreams, all the people's faces are blurry, yet I know subconsciously who that person is, who they represent. These dreams are like little tastes of my future, as I imagine it. They are really interesting and exciting. Sometimes so much so that its disappointing to wake up from.

I am not going to get into nitty gritty details of the dreams because I have had quite a few, but in these dreams I see myself working in the hospital setting. Where as I normally am scared of the future of my nursing career, these dreams show me that I am a good nurse, very competent and confident.

My dreams also show me buying my own dog, something I have always wanted to do. Some kind of terrier, its not really clear, but its a terrier, I am sure of it.

In another dream I am in my own house, cooking with a woman that I assume is my future wife. I don't know her name because in my dream the name isn't important. Though I cannot see her face, I know she is beautiful. I imagine she would represent everything I would want in a wife. I imagine she is one with with her faith, and our relationship is faith-centered.

I know dreams are only dreams, subconscious visions we have while we sleep, but I cannot let go of these. I cannot dismiss them as something so simple, something explainable by psychology or science alike. No, I believe these dreams are God's way of telling me that I do have a future, I do have something to look forward to, I have a life ahead, where I can do good work for others while garnishing great relationships with people I love. And all of this through him. I am sure some neuroscientist would examine my brain waves and tell me these dreams are some sort of neurochemical reaction while I am sleeping, but I cannot settle for that answer. It is God, and God alone.