Regret

Utter feeling of regret.
I am lucky, it doesn't always affect me.
But lately, it hits me and it really really is unfortunate.
I'm by no means sad, it doesn't get me that down.
But it sucks.
I wish I hadn't messed up.
I wish I had had the balls to give it a chance.
Instead I let fear take over and I ended it before it had the chance to be something great.
My reasons feel invalid.
She would have made me happy and I her.
Now, I don't even see her hardly.
Just saw her today for the first time in a while, and man it was heaven.
But I just wish I took more time to think about things and not acted so soon.
I messed it up and it probably will never be again.
Damn.

Hmmmm.