This Modern Love

I heard this song for the first time in a while today. 

It used to make me sad because I thought I would never have the kind of love I dream of.

But when I heard it today, I felt satisfied for once. Instead of thinking of the people I haven't met, the girl of my dreams that is nonexistant at this point in my life, I thought of something else.

I thought of all the great people that I am close to right now.

And that this modern love of ours, this love we are expected to go for, isn't always the best kind of love.

I will use initials so as not to embarrass any friends, but I think of simple things about my friends that make we wanna burst out in love for them. MD always pushing me to be better even though I hate it in the moment; she knows I hate it but she pushes me regardless. LM listening to me way more than I needed to put on her at certain times this year. EV for being my best friend ever, for understanding everything I have been through, and for never questioning the mistakes I made, but again for understanding. 

For GH, being my boy, for knowing me more than probably anyone I am around that often. For all the people that make me feel so very special. Not in the sense that I am flattered a lot. But just in the sense that I wake up every day feeling like I deserve his love, and that I am important! 

I think it is so hard to feel important being one of 8 billion people on a single planet in this universe, but these people make me feel like I am of vital importance to humanity.

They make me realize what I bring to this life, and I am completely satisfied with myself with their help.

I would truly be happy to die for any of them, and thats what love in essence is to me.

So, yeah, maybe I have never found that modern love that we all look for, and I'm never gonna not be looking or hoping it is around the corner. 

But I am content and happy and enflamed with the love a 1000 hearts for these people.

That love is forever, that love is not fleeting.