Before I start this blog post, I wanna start by saying that this blog is not just me rambling about my favorite Disney movies. I love Disney, and this post, as well as my last post references Disney movies. Pure coincidence.
Anyways, I was walking to my Statistics class today, and was listening to my iPod like I usually do. My playlist was on shuffle, and a song came up that I absolutely love. Its a Disney song, called "I'm Still Here" by John Rzeznik (of the Goo Goo Dolls). The song is from Treasure Planet, one of Disney's less popular movies of the past years, but still a great one, nonetheless. "I'm Still Here" has always been one of those sentimental songs that gets to me, from the first time I heard it in sixth or seventh grade. It was an angsty, yet uplifting song. If you know me well, you will know sentimental and uplifting are two of my calling cards.
My best ideas and realizations tend to happen as if certain moments in my life flash before me like a stack of photographs. All of these moments move quickly as they flash through my mind, but often times they culminate into this amazing, unifying thought. The best part of "I'm Still Here" is when the writer exclaims "I want a moment to be real, wanna touch things I don't feel." Its about this part of the song that I had this flash of emotions and my mind whirred with moments, that left me with unified feeling. I felt amazing in that moment, though I couldn't quite explain it yet. I felt the biggest need to blog, but sadly had class, and studying to do before I could.
The flash of photographs in my mind, triggered by this amazing song, gave me this feeling like I felt something real. I have had great times in my life, and met amazing people. I have been to multiple countries, and been apart of things bigger than myself. Yet somehow, this feeling was unlike any of those previously mentioned.
This past year has been a constant up-hill battle, filled with trials I though I would never have to face; the kind of trials that just a few years ago, I would laugh at, because it could never happen to me. But at the same time, this year has presented me with so many moments to be real. Its hard to explain, but as I was walking, I had images of things happening to me this past year, good and bad, and they all started to fit together like a puzzle. People I have known before this year, grown closer to, developed true relationships; Roommates, who know me better than anyone. People I have met, that I am still getting to know, that I look forward to bright futures with; That girl that I like, that I wish I did a better job of getting to know. People I don't know, that I will never know, but that still influenced me this past year, in some way, in some form. They are presenting me daily with moments to be real. I have never felt this real, this alive, like I have touched things I don't feel.
This feeling of real and genuine gives me hope for things to come. It gives me confidence moving forward with the people I know and love, and hope for more like them in the years to come. It gives the realization that I am still here after the trials I have faced, and it gives me faith that I will continue to get through whatever it is I am dealing with. Like the Rzeznik sings, "I'm the one now, cause I'm still here." I'm still here.
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