Ever Present

I love being home, don't get me wrong, but I cannot wait to be back at school.
I miss being so close to the people I love. I cannot say enough how hard it is to live this far away. I feel like I live on another planet. I miss my friends so much.

But random acts of kindness from people make things better. When people go out of their way to show me they miss me and that they are thinking of me, just like I think of them, it means the world to me.

I so badly want to see certain people. I want to see my friends. There is only so much I can do when I live so far.

I have made a lot of progress this summer. I am so happy for that. I am confident about being able to reciprocate when I am back at school. I feel like I have spent the last two years being only a portion of the full me, and for my friends to love me after only that, there is no wonder how much I can offer them, and how much fun we can have with the full Nikko present. Ever present, ever present, ever present. That is the key.

I want to get closer to certain people as well. I feel like I can truly do that now that I have taken this summer "off" for me, to get better, and prepare myself for this year and beyond.

I pray that people not fear my challenge, for it is not me. I am Nikko. The challenge, we can call it Ed. Two separate people. My challenge is to be Nikko, because Nikko is who my friends and family love. Do not fear me, because I, Nikko, want to be apart of your lives! I love you all.