1. I found out today that my family is going to vacation to the Grand Canyon. At first I was like "Really?", but now I am excited to go. I haven't gone on a real outdoors trip in a long time, and I have never been out southwest besides California. It will be nice to connect with nature and get away from civilization.
2. I start my online Microbiology class in a week or so. I am not excited at all. I like not having a plan or anything on my agenda during the summer. Now I have to learn about something I am not in the least bit interested in, and its my last class before Nursing. So over school, to be honest. But what else would I do? Lord knows how its gonna be when I actually have a job and live in the real world.
3. I ordered my first pair of Chacos today. Judge me all you want. I feel like I will either love them or hate them. They are definitely odd sandals.
4. Being home makes me realize or remember how much I love dogs. I love being home with my dogs Kilo and Dmitry. Two of the best Yorkies ever. I have already decided one of my first purchases I will make as a postgrad (besides the basics of living) is a dog. I am looking at different breeds and trying to be acquainted with multiple breeds. I like Yorkies of course, but I also like Boston Terriers, French bulldogs, Shiba Inus, and Shepperkes. I am sure that means nothing to you, but Google them! You won't be disappointed!
5. I am still trying to do everything I have to do to get better this summer and improve, but things are uncomfortable so often. I hate it. This is tough, and I really think no one understands it. I am still gonna keep pushing to improve, but I can't act like I am enjoying this either. It kinda sucks.
6. I am in such a weird place right now. I don't even know how to describe it! Its not necessarily bad, I just feel that if I had to describe my life in one word right now I probably couldn't.
7. I am usually heartset on doing missionary work abroad with my nursing skills I will gain from college. But lately, I just feel so unsure about it. I feel like if its God's will for me to go, I would need to go. But I can't discern whether that's what he wants of me. Who knows, may be I meant to help a community here in America, anywhere from my home Nashville, to some place like Boston, or small town in the middle of nowhere Montana? I don't know. I want to help abroad, but its a HUGE decision, and something I cannot just do on a whim. I will ponder this more over the next couple of years. I do want to help the best I can no matter what, no matter where I am, that is for sure.
8. I finished a book quicker than I ever had this week. It wasn't a small book either. It is called "Music for Torching" by A.M. Homes. Long story short, it tells the story of a married couple who does not get a long at all, and end up burning their house down. They frame it as an accident later when they realize how crazy they were, and their lives unfold in a terrible way in the midst of the friends they live with in their neighborhood. The story itself is terrible, leaving you feeling awful in a way, for their marriage, for the disintegration of their family, like their house early in the book. But it was so well written, so vivid in its descriptions and connection to characters, that I really couldn't get enough. Its amazing how a great writer can make a terrible story irresistible to me. The book left me with these thoughts: I am so much better than Paul and Elaine. I will find the person for me and I would never let things get bad with that person, ever. I would know if I love them and I wouldn't let anything change that. Positive out of a negative, yep.
No comments:
Post a Comment