Today

God,

This hurts.
What is wrong with me?
I don't know.
Hypothetical question.
I am sick and tired of being told "your a catch" or "your going to make someone very happy someday."
She had good reasons, and honestly I cannot argue with it. I know she is doing exactly what she needs to do and I am happy she is moving in the right direction. I am so proud of her for that. It makes me so happy to know the good she is doing and will be doing in the very near future.
But what about me? How often do I ask for anything, God?
I am one hundred percent on board with your master plan, but will it ever cross my ideal path, God?
What is wrong with me? Am I good enough looking? I don't even care any more. I have been to hell and back in trying to change how I look, all my life, and I come to that I cannot win.
What can I do, God?
Guide me in the right direction, because right now I am low and I need some peace of mind.
I do thank you for giving me this day to live God.
Forgive me, I am only human in my questioning.
One of your many earthly sons,

Nikko