So many thoughts on my 3 hour 45 minute car ride home from school today. Lots of much needed time to think. I have a few things to talk about, and will dedicate a blog post to each of them.
The first is important to me.
I was listening to my music on my stereo. A song from one of my favorite artists came up. The song is one I have heard a lot, but had obviously not given it much deep thought until today. I listened deeply and intently to the lyrics, and focused on nothing else besides the road and the words. It was a beautiful realization I had at how much the song applies to my life.
The song is called "Shake It Out" by Florence & the Machine, and I realized while listening to it, that it has got to be the anthem to my recovery and my struggle.
Listen to the song. I promise it won't disappoint. My favorite quote from the song is "It's hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off." This applies to my situation completely. My struggle has been the devil on my back. I have been trying to dance freely for so long, and the struggle has been the devil latched on, keeping me from doing so. I really just gotta shake it off, but sadly it is not that easy. I am working hard at it, and making progress. But boy, I cannot wait to dance again.
"Its always darkest before the dawn." I feel like this could be true for me. I have been in such a dark place over the past couple years and I feel like its the dark before the dawn. It may not be immediate, but the sunrise may be on the horizon in the close distance. I can feel its warmth creeping up on me.
Please listen to the song. I almost cried listening to the lyrics that closely on the way home. I had to play the song a second time to let it sink in. I hope others can understand where I am coming from with this and feel some empathy to my situation. I love you for it.
No comments:
Post a Comment