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Money and finances are such a recurring theme lately in my life. My parents are constantly worried about paying finances, people I hang with are constantly talking about jobs or lack there of, and how they need one to get money.

I had been thinking lately that I really hate money. I mean sure, I love the things money can bring. The simple things, like food, proper clothing, and other various necessities, I absolutely love and appreciate daily. But all I can think of is how much I don't care if I have it. I can acquire almost an unlimited amount of material things in this world with money, but as I think about it, the things I want, money cannot buy.

Money cannot get me past this struggle I deal with daily. I could acquire all the money in the world, and that problem would continue to haunt me all the same. In the same logic, I could have absolutely no money, and could work hard to fix my problem. I think I know which path I would choose.

Additionally, there is so much that I want in this life than money and my struggle to end. I want the Lord. I want to be holy, to be a vessel for His love. I want to hear, to know, and understand the nature of His love, and somehow, spread it to others, especially those who do not experience many forms of love, who long for belonging and more. I want to be His advocate for these people, the unspoken souls of the world, close and far away.

Money cannot bring this to me. Money is paper, with various inks and stamped numbers and lettering, that we accept as something of great value. But I refuse to accept this as truly great value. True value is something that cannot be printed and distributed to the masses. It cannot be devalued, it cannot lose value or have its value inflated like the dollar. The things I seek in life have true value, that goes untouched from worldly matters.

I cannot help but think of Trident Layers gum commercial. "Of course you can pay me in gum!" Well instead of gum, instead of money, could I just do my life's work (whatever that may be, though I think I am seeing it unfold before me) and be paid in connections to the Lord and his children? Of course you can pay me in that!